Mixtape Cover+Update

As I started to finalize the writing and flow of this mixtape, I decided to open up my notebook again to make the writing more real. If this was possibly going to be my only mixtape I want people to get to know me on a personal level along with the fun and upbeat side. Will the mixtape still be done on 12.1.2009? I'm not sure, but I will know in the next couple of days when I re-record a couple of tracks. There are 7 definite tracks finished and I want to aim at there being a final of 16 tracks. An incredible blend between a party and an autobiography. That's why the title is simply "August Agony" now. I completely re-evaluated what I wanted this mixtape to represent and I am already proud of the body of work we are putting in. As far as features there are a only a couple that I am absolutely certain at the very moment. Colin Munroe, Joell Ortiz, Tha Metatronz and Rhoads 17 are all I know right now. If there is a date change for the mixtape it will be posted here on my blog. I still get really excited when I think about this project and the motivation of it being incredible is what keeps me going. Grassroots and follow me on twitter (ryanjcbrown). Stay grassrooted.

RB

Albums To Tickle Your Eardrums

Hottest MCs In The Game (MY List)

MTV recently just came out with their yearly list of the hottest MCs in the game. Here is the MTV list:

1. Jay-Z
2. Lil Wayne
3. Drake
4. Kanye West
5. Rick Ross
6. Gucci Mane
7. Young Jeezy
8. Fabolous
9. 50 Cent
10. Raekwon

The list is kinda shaky to me for a couple of reasons. One, Eminem who released one of the highest selling albums of the year with Relapse did not make the list. WTF. Second, I think 50 Cent was ranked a little high at number 9 and Raekwon the chef was ranked a little high at number 10. But overall, I think the list is pretty good. While I was bored at work I decided to put together my own list. With my list I added a one liner about why the are on my list, added two more spots to make the list 12 and a link to my one of favorite present tracks. ENJOY!!!

1. Jay-Z "The Blueprint 3 pushes Hova to the top. Very impressive album" On To The Next One
2. Eminem "Relapse wasn't his best, but Slim Shady is back" Beautiful
3. Lil Wayne "Headlined the highest grossing hip-hop tour...Ever. Weezy stays hot" Bedrock
4. Drake "Comeback Season (Classic) So Far Gone (Legendary) Thank Me Later??" Fear
5. Kanye West "Continues to push boundaries and stay relevant. Autotune or not" Streetlights
6. Rick Ross "Deeper Than Rap, one of the best albums of 2009" Face
7. Fabolous "Losos Way. Remixes continue to be hotter than the originals though" Throw It In The Bag Remix
8. Young Jeezy "Appearance after appearance, tour with Wayne, Thug Motivation 103" My President
9. Gucci Mane "The mixtapes just wont STOP. But definitely hottest in the hood. Photoshoot
10. Wale "Mixtapes are too silly. Attention: Deficit November 10th" Inhibitions: Let Loose
11. 50 Cent "Losing respect FAST, but I will listen to Before I Self Destruct" OK, You're Right
12. Raekwon "Cuban Linx Part II is illy. Underdog from the Wu-Tang come through" House Of Flying Daggers

Track 17 of "How Do You Feel About That"

Mr. Hudson chopping up the track "Time" which will have me on the final mixtape version.
His album "Straight No Chaser" will be released in stores November 1st
My mixtape "August Agony Presents: How Do You Feel About That??" will be released December 1st via this blog
Artwork for my mixtape coming really soon

About The Mixtape + Tracklist

“My mixtape tells the story of just one talented and determined young man who feels he has a lot to prove outside of music. At first I wanted it to be more of short story, but as I started to progress (when it came to my writing and exploring the beats) it became an 18 track story. Each track you can feel the growth of the young man. He starts as a college kid who wants to live the college life of girls, partying, drinking and drugging until he meets that one special girl and he decides he wants to make the ultimate commitment sooner rather than later. The overall tape is really relaxed, there are a couple tracks that have been heard before but the majority of it is new stuff I plan on recording this fall semester. I wanted to add some of the most amazing artists to this tape and some of it is their music, but everything is perfectly placed for the theme of the story I am trying to tell. It’s not the most amazing love story, but the thing that is going to make this mixtape much different is that this overall story has never been covered. We will always have the stories of the killers, the hustlers and drug dealers, but that is not who I am or the story I am trying to tell. This is just a honest story with good music that I hope everyone will like. It’s titled ‘How Do You Feel About That??’ because it is basically not a story that is explored in hip-hop. It is a little bit more than hip hop in some elements and tracks and I want people’s honest opinion about the mixtape and the story that is behind. This might be my first and last mixtape and I just want people to enjoy it just as much as I enjoyed telling the story. I love music and this is going to be my definition of what music is to me.”

December 1st 2009

R.B.

August Agony Presents: How Do You Feel About That?? (Final Tracklist)

1. Words 

2. Piano Lessons (feat. Colin Munroe & Joell Ortiz) 

3. Destroy (feat. The Metatrons)

4. Hear Them Calling (feat. Kid Cudi) 

5. Voicemail Interlude

6. Futuristic Introduction

7. Drunk Text (with Rhoads 17)

8. Forget About Your Man (feat. Kwame Tabron)

9. Beat It (feat. Nate Keeys)

10. Despicable Me (feat. Pharrell, The Metatronz & Brian Cruz)

11. Rollin (feat. Bomster-Jabs) 

12. Keys Open Doors 

13. Slow It Down (feat. Drake)

14. Voicemail Interlude 

15. Just Chill (with Rhoads 17)  

16. Missin You (feat. Rhoads 17) 

17. TIme (feat. Mr. Hudson) 

18. Grand Finale  

Little Weapon

Little Terry got a gun, he got from the store,
He bought it with the money he got from his chores,
He robbed candy shop told her lay down on the floor,
Put the cookies in his bag took the pennies out the drawer.

Little Kalil got a gun he got from the rebels,
To kill the infidels and American devils,
A bomb on his waist,
A mask on his face,
Prays five times a day,
And listens to Heavy Metal.

Little Alex got a gun he took from his dad,
That he snuck into school in his black book bag,
His black nail polish, black boots and black hair,
He's gonna blow away the bully that just pushed his ass..

Real recognize real.

I Miss My Love

I mean, I don't even know where to start like.
It's like you find love, and you lose love, and then...

Met her up town on Dyckman
aight then
light skinned
staring with a slight grin, I dont know, Might been
'Cause im in this white Benz

Or the way the Ice in the Breitling flash brighter than lightning
but I knew from right then
She was about her money, and how she fit right in knowing how i might spend.
To make a story short, other than a Tight End
Had a Washington Heights friend
Who bring that white in.
Set up a meeting, Her dude caught a flight in
Sat down at Sole, popped a bottle of white then
got straight to business like two corporate white men
the food came, before I could take a bite in
He said "You the type I usually don't invite in, but since we got a like friend I could get you like, 10"
I told him I could move like 10 by nights end
put the white over the plate, like I'm throwing strikes in.
'El Duke' got a dude in the UK, Buy 5 bricks at a time, $22K
He send the Euro's I send the Puredo
Now thats what I like to call a "Foriegn Exchange"
He smiled. Duke finished his glass of wine
There's a van outside, pull your S-Class behind
My man will pass a dime, at 15 a pop
Tell shorty "Make the drop, Don't make no stops!"
I gave him a hand shake some dollars for the tab
Told shorty the location then I holla'd for a cab
I hit Mike told 'em "Send the wire to the buyers"
Word got 'round like we were handin' out flyers!

And them thangs went as quick as they came
I'm back being a hustler, this chick is to blame

And them thangs went as quick as they came
I'm back being a hustler, this chick is to blame...

12 months in, turned a Benz to a Lambo
Everywhere the fam go, corks fly, Champ Flow--
I gotta celebrate, that's the way I am yo
In the past week I watched 50,000 grams go
Pocket full of money, Army full of Rambo's
Trunk full of bricks, Hand guns full Ammo

Even got detectives if somethin' goes wrong
The money's so strong they see it from my perspective
But with my shorty, A nigga's so protective-
And should be, she's the one who knows where the connect lives.
She don't talk much, real calm and collective
Seen something in me because shorty's really selective.

I tell her fall back, shorty stilla drive
Said the rush of the risk just makes her feel alive
I listen to her fuss, saying "that I must, let her do it 'cause they're aint too many niggas that I trust"

So now time is flyin', I been kinda eyeing-
A ring for my queen who got me diamond buying

I'm in the GT headed up to CT, Lookin' for a stone to light her finger like ET
I got there, and got a call from a DT (detective)
Sounded nervous saying "we need to talk now"
I told em chill out, I aint in new york now
Any problems I got, get traced in chalk now

But when I get back, we can sit and chit-chat
Better not be no bull shit, I aint even wit that..

Back to what a nigga came out here for
this 5ct. Diamond without near flaw's

head back to the city, call up the commitee
get ready for tomorow, they're comin' in with 50
-I almost forgot, I gotta see a cop
I figured it was a drop who must aint get his guap

He told me meet him by the bridge, I get there in a hurry
Got me worried and it's probably just a minor mix up
He said: "Nah Ryan, FED's dun snatched ya chick up-
Caught her at a pick up, scoopin' those bricks up!
She gon' cooperate, and ya fixed up.
She's probably at the headquarters now hangin' Flix up"

I asked him "Was he sure"
Shorty's "Mi Amore"
This happened to me before, with my man Diadore-
Over a Ki(lo) of raw-
My nigga got killed, caps got peeled and I still got guilt.
He assured me, I was hot- she had put 'em on me
Swore to Jesus' Tears that he was here to warn me.

Normally, I would have just ended her life...
but this was the girl I intended to wife

So I went home to shorty, had trouble sleepin'- shorty's kinda peepin my sudden discomfort
She woke up mad early, so I got up with her
She wanted to go alone, but a nigga insisted
Like "Baby it's been a while" and truthfully I missed it

We rode out, but she don't know that I done made a plan
Once she hits the spot, one shot- see you later man

I watched her in the building,
knowing it's the last time seeing her ass climb in and out of the car
Yo I even thought about getting out of the car
But sat back lookin' at the ring about to be yall's

I let one tear fall at an unfair call
Ya whole life can change in just one year yall..
Caught in a thought, then I heard a :: BANG! ::

Hi love, bye love, I will miss my love.

Yeah

Now listen
First off if it was the last thing
I'll put you first
So you deserve my last name
You make my worst days feel like my birthday
If we nvr happen we'll regret it in the worst way
Like not seeing the world trade your worth the galaxy baby so let's world trade
And I tend to tell God thank you
Cause baby your my angel
At least from my angle...

Inspiration Music (Songs That Came Up Today)

Wale feat. K'Naan-- Um Ricka

Jay-Z feat. Swizz Beatz-- On To The Next One

Lykke Li-- Trumpet In My Head

Fabolous-- I Miss My Love (Storytelling Skills of the YEARRRR)

Muse-- Guiding Light

Calvin Harris-- I'm Not Alone

Raekwon The Chef-- Canal Street

Follow The Links

THE City


I am a big fan


If I could write you a song, this is exactly what it would sound like...


Peep the feet


Let's make this next summer


This is where I will be August 1st 2010


Love

How I Treat Her...

We up in Barneys going dumb again,
Every time we leave the manager say come again,
Honestly shes probably old enough to be my mama’s friend,
She just want that feeling back, I make her feel young again,
If the card declined you need to check that shit and run again,
They don’t give you limits when you keep that money coming in,
Yeah, just fold some paper round the magnet,
As soon as it approve you can throw it in the bag,
She mature to say the least,
and if I get a car she make sure to pay the lease,
She used to have a husband until she found out he cheats,
Then she filed for divorce and watched that bank account increase,
She got a condo with a view, a house with a pool,
Her son is 18 but he just went away to school,
She always show me pictures of him, tell me thats a baby,
I hope that i never meet him, that nigga look craaaazy,
and I be spending all my lady chips,
She got me feeling like my daddy back in 86,
Yeah, she say that she lucky that she his,
No, I m lucky that you mine baby, you know what it is.......

Songs Of The Day

Some stuff that should get you pumped for school... BECAUSE I AM SO READY

- Gucci Mane feat. Plies- Wasted (MY ANTHEMMMM!!!)

- Asher Roth- Blunt Cruisin'

- Drake feat. Robin Thicke- Teach U A Lesson

- Lupe Fiasco feat. N.E.R.D.- And He Gets The Girl

- Phillys Most Wanted- Please Don't Mind

- Kid Cudi feat. Jackie Chain- Rollin' (Remix)

Kid Cudi "Man On The Moon" Album Cover

Dopeness (Dropping September 15th)

Some Songs To Download and Inspiring Videos

Mr Hudson- White Lies

Wiz Khalifa & Curren$y- Drunk Dialing

All Time Low- Dear Maria, Count Me In

Next- Too Close

Ma$e feat. Lil' Cease and Jay-Z- Cheat On You

Justin Bieber- One Time


This is the making of two of my favorite joints ("Gibberish" and "Diamond Girl") on his self-titled album "Ryan Leslie", go scoop it if you don't have it!!!

Gibberish



Diamond Girl

Fall 2009 Collections (Sneakers, Album and Magazine Covers)

Wow... the hiatus is over

Bloggers!!!

Its seriously been forever since i got on my blog, but that's only because my grinding schedule has been insanely crucial this summer. Along with internships, classes, my birthday, working, major social drama and beefing with the family, I barely had time to catch my breath. But with school starting up and summer school ending, my blogging game is going to be awesome. Startinggg NOW!

The beginning of my summer was primarily about working to pay rent and living away from my family for the first time over the summer. But with crazy events surrounding my social life came into play, I realized I had a lot more to worry about. But I used this time to find God again and put all my energy towards positive things. I lost 15 pounds, started to go to church/reading the bible more regularly, limited the amount of drinking and cussing I did and basically just started living my life as a 20 year old kid with major responsibilities. I looked at my iTunes playlist and started to diversify my music even more with fresh new artists and reliable old favorites that I honestly forgot all about. Music and working out has always been outlet when things arent going my way and they will never let me down. You can still continue to follow me on twitter, and I do update it a few times a day. I'm trying to get a new Blackberry Tour in the next couple weeks but thats up in the air, especially if I get this Leo the lion tattoo before school starts.

I can't wait for this pathetic summer to be over. I'm ready to start my 2nd half of my college with a better outlook on life, surround myself with an entourage upgrade and watch all the positive moves happen on their own. I'm pretty excited about the future, and I'm back on my blogging game forreal so expect this page to be popping every day or so. No one is holding me back now and I'm doing things the way it is supposed to be done!!

RB

Songs Of The Day

Mario feat. Gucci Mane and Sean Garrett- Break Up

Ryan Leslie feat. Pusha T- Something That I Like

Wale feat. J. Cole and Currensy- Rather Be With You

Mary J. Blige feat. Drake- The One

Kanye West feat. GLC and Consequence- Spaceship

The Distinct Difference Between My Parents

Mom- Girls are very sensitive. Guys always put up this macho front and show that they arent nurturing people but that's the exact opposite of what women want. Girls want to feel that they are safe and they want to be protected, but at the same time they want men that are in tune with all their needs. They want to feel special and that they are important. Girls have to be independent yes, but they want the benefit to know that their man is able to take care of things whenever it is necessary. Love to women is a very crucial thing, because even if they don't show it. Many girls see if they can marry someone they are dating even if its the first date. Guys are quite simple and content, but every girl is very complex on the inside whether they know it or not. We blame men for our problems even if they have nothing to do with our problems. But hey, were girls. We fall in love for stupid guys and they are usually the first things on our minds. Even when they treat us like crap, betray our trust or do something really stupid, we learn quickly that no one is perfect and we all make mistakes. We love our men and we have to stand by them.

Dad- First off, being single in college is definitely one of the most crucial things a young man can ever go through. When I was at Maryland, I'm telling you I never had a girlfriend. Ever. That's just stupid. I was 100% pure passion pimpin'. 'The Game" had it right. You never EVER call a girl by her name. If you have to get their attention, give them nicknames, cool ones. Never spend more than consecutive 4 hours with the same girl. Overnight stays have to be kept to a minimum. Always wrap it up despite whatever she tries to tell you. Pay for dinner, romance her, listen to whatever she has to say, hit and quit it, no cuddling, thank for the ass, deuces. What's done is done. If she's not worth talking to her again then don't. But other than small talk is necessary sometimes in case you want to hook up with her again. That's an agenda. Girls always try to say guys are pigs, but no one is forcing them to go out and hop into bed with us. When she gets the call, she knows it's on. You go to a school with 18,000 girls. Son never EVER get hung up on the same girl because nine times out of ten they aren't worried about you either.

I can't believe these two people have kids together lol.

R|B|

A Moment

Who is that peaking in my window? (You?)
You should let some more skin show
And if one of these websites get the info
Wii we can work it out like Nintendo
Normally it aint a question
We would cross paths like an intersection
But she's just too far way for affection
So I pray that we never lose the connection
I remember Haley she probably hate me
She used to threaten she had a man to replace me
Staying talking that mess so I had to hit the escape key
Now she get mad and wanna hit the erase key
I remember Amy, she used to AIM me
She stayed up late, she used to blame me
She said I'm too wild, she gotta tame me
I said even photoshop couldn't change me
But you really really got me open girl why lie?
I aint even trying to settle girl so why try?
End the night with a kiss and a bye bye
With no strings attached her love is so wi-fi

R[jc]B

These Are Always Funny

Did reading the Subject make you horny?- UM no lol

Are you already thinking about someone?- kinda kinda lol

How old were you when you lost your virginity?- 15

Ever take someones virginity?- yeah yeah yeah lol

Ever plan to wait til marriage?- haha not when i got started

When did you last have sex?- umm a month in a half ago?

Do you consider yourself dominant?- not really, i consider myself passive

What form of birth control do you use?- lol a condom if I have to

Do you have any children?- no lol

Ever give or receive the SHOCKER?- HAHAHA no not at all

Do you know a SHOCKER slogan?- I'm not going to say it

Are you a freak in the sheets?- I think every guy is that ever got any

Do you have sex dreams?- here and there

Ever been called a whore or slut? haha naw

Ever try anal sex? If not, would you? no and i wouldnt

Is there anything sexual you wouldnt try? Anal sex lol

Bases:

What is 1st base? Make out

What is 2nd base? Anything with hands

What is 3rd base? Anything with the mouth

What is 4th base? (Home?) Intercourseeee

Ever have Sex:

in a Car? Yes

in a Truck Bed? No lol

in a Mini Van? No lol

on a Bus? No lol

in an Airplane? Ummm no, but close

in a Public Bathroom? Thats really gross...

at School? Pretty close...

at Work? Considered it...

in the Ocean? No that doesnt seem fun

Where is the wierdest place? Um a gazebo!

Suave Cocoa Butter

Jeez I havent been on here in a minute. And when I do get on its 4.30 in the morning Sorry for that, work has been catching up to me and I've been hitting the gym extra hard again before I go home tomorrow. So, whats new? Ummm I've lost 15 pounds since school ended, thats one. Around finals I weighed around 205 now im down to 190. Being huge was cool when I played football all the time, but at this point I just think its crucial to cut the fat off and just stay tone. I gotta have that perfect beach body so I've been hitting the gym twice a day and going to the pool with my roommates and other peoples. What else, what else. Work is fine, it's just certain aspects that are really getting to me. Working at Salisbury is nothing close to the field I'm studying in college, so I think I'm going to start looking for jobs, one thats closer to campus, two that is actually in my career field and three that is away from people that I want to put their head into the floor.

I've been trying to get to church/bible study pretty regularly and I've been pretty successful. I kind of lost track of my faith with all this college shuffling and working grinding. I'm learning to be one of the most trustworthy people anybody can ask for, so I asked for forgiveness of my sins and promised I wouldn't lie anymore, no matter how ugly the truth is. I just feel my life has been in such a downward spiral lately that I had to make more conscious personal changes to improve my own well-being. I haven't drank in a longgg time, trying to get my cussing down and be a more caring individual that Sheila Brown would truly appreciate. I still miss her every day. It's almost impossible to stop thinking of someone who was basically taken away from you. But I have to be strong for my family, because I am really nothing without them. People may come and go in my life, but my family will always be there. I try so hard because I want them to be proud me. My parent's approval is all the motivation I need to make the President's List and give me that extra push for grad school. I don't want to disappoint because that's the last thing my family needs is another disappointment.

So when I say I have changed for the better, please actually listen to what I'm saying. People make stupid mistakes sometimes, but that's all apart of the growing up process. No person, no relationship or situation is perfect. But it's what you learn and what you take from those imperfections is what really counts. I don't plan on waiting around forever even though love is timeless. If you don't want to trust what I'm telling you that's fine because there is somebody out there who will take what I say seriously and love me just the way I am. Because I am incredible being and I plan on making something of myself. Imperfections and all.

Songs I Listened To Today: Drake- Lust For Life, Asher Roth- Be By Myself, Marques Houston- Circle, Wale- The Remake of a Remake

One Love

R^B^

Eminem Dedication...

My man Eminem graced the June cover of both Vibe and XXL magazine and since I'm the biggest Em fan (along with the biggest B.I.G. fan), I decided to do a post but the great white hope of hip-hop. In the XXL issue, they asked dozens of rappers what favorite songs, verses, guest appearances but the man so I guess I will do the same. I'm not going to lie. I was disappointed with the Relapse album. It was still dope, but not legendary status as his other 5 albums. But again, I'm not going to lie. I play "We Made You" like everyday. That song is hilarious. But anyways lets go in...


Favorite Album: The Marshall Mathers LP --> I was one of the 1.76 million people to buy this album the first week it came out and I was 11 years old. I remember the day because I wanted to buy the explicit version and the clerk wouldn't sell it to me. So I sent my Dad in there and buy it. Hearing all that stuff I heard at 11 years old, was probably a little bit much, but what made the album so incredible was that it WAS so over the top. The Christopher Reeves and homosexual references were wrong, but oh so hilarious. I seriously can't choose a favorite song off the album because the whole thing was straight magic. 'Criminal' I remembered listening to it 11 times in row. The bank robbery skit was brilliant. 'The Real Slim Shady', 'Stan', 'The Way I Am' were heavily played on the radio. 'Drug Ballad' was a big reason why I excited to go to college at 11. 'Ken Kaniff' always coming through. 'Kill You' was the probably the most out of hand. GODDDD love it.
Favorite Verse--> Dr. Dre feat. Eminem "Forgot About Dre"- I'll just leave you with the verse. This is probably the most rediculous thing ever said in a song.

So what do you say to somebody you hate?
Or anybody tryna bring trouble your way
Wanna resolve things in a bloodier way
Just study your tape of NWA.
One day I was walkin by
With a Walkman on
When I caught a guy givin me an awkward eye
And strangled him off in the parkin lot wit his Karl Kani
I don't give a fuck if it's dark or not
It's harder than me tryna park a Dodge
But I'm drunk as fuck
Right next to a humungous truck in a two car garage
Hoppin out wit two broken legs tryna walk it off
Fuck you too bitch call the cops
I'ma kill you and them loud ass muthafuckin barkin dogs
And when the cops came through
Me and Dre stood next to a burnt down house
Wit a can full of gas and a hand full of matches
And still weren't found out
From here on out it's the Chronic 2
Startin today and tomorrows the new
And I'm still loco enough
To choke you to death wit a Charleston chew
[Record scratch]
Slim shady hotter then a set of twin babies
In a Mercedes Benz wit the windows up
And the temp goes up to the mid 80's
Callin men ladies
Sorry Doc but I been crazy
There is no way that you can save me
It's ok go with him Hailey

Favorite Guest Appearance--> Eminem and Dr. Dre- Guilty Conscience- Haha the video was funny as hell and as soon as I saw the video, I downloaded the explicit version. I love how Dr. Dre is the voice of reason in the song and Eminem is just going offffff lol. The song and concepts were crafted beautifully and I loved every second.

Favorite Song--> This is probably the most unfair question you could ever ask an Eminem fan. And since my favorite album was the Marshall Mathers LP, Ill stray away from that album. Seriously I believe it is 'My Name Is'. It was a super crucial introduction to Eminem for me. The video was hilarious and I don't think I will ever get over this line.

My English teacher wanted to flunk me in junior high
Thanks a lot, next semester I'll be thirty-five
I smacked him in his face with an eraser, chased him with a stapler
and stapled his nuts to a stack of papers
Walked in the strip club, had my jacket zipped up
Flashed the bartender, then stuck my dick in the tip cup
Extraterrestrial, runnin over pedestrians
Raping lesbians, while they scream: "LET'S JUST BE FRIENDS!

HAHAHAHA, I swear will never get over it, I remember Mom wouldnt let buy his first album then Dad bought me the second. Strictly awesome.

Em I will always support you. Stay clean homie.

Write Rapper T.I. A Letter

Write my man Clifford Harris while he is incarcerated! I'm sure he would appreciate your mail!

CLIFFORD J HARRIS

REGISTER NUMBER: 59458-019

FCI FORREST CITY LOW

FEDERAL CORRECTIONAL INSTITUTION

P.O. BOX 9000

FORREST CITY, AR 72336

And To Answer Your Question....

YES! You have gained a considerable amount of weight... only being honest lol.
R1B1

Ryan Brown---> Soundtrack Of A Normal Day

Let me tell you something. I listen to my iPod Touch for a good two to three solid hours everyday. And when I'm not on www.leakjones.com to see what is current in the hip-hop world and doing homework, I'm usually cranking something in my car (or walking to class) from the late 80's/early 90's. But on a normal day this would probably be my soundtrack.

I usually wake up in the morning with my headphones on, my iPod usually dead from letting it play all night. So I put my iPod on the charger and hop in the shower. Before I EVEN get dressed, I play something to prepare me for the day. Something from The Tribe Called Quest (Electric Relaxtion or Find A Way) is always good to get dressed to.

If I have to work in the morning, I usually ride to work to something to get me hype for being up early. As of recently it would be to the tune of F.L.Y.'s Swag Surfin, Hurricane Chris' She Fine (Halle Berry) but you can't go wrong with Lil' Wayne (Always Strapped or I'm Goin In) or Asher Roth (Be By Myself or The Lounge) or Wale (Ice Cream Girl or Chillin).

If I'm walking to class, you really can't go wrong with some slow R&B (something to the tune of Drake's Sooner Than Later and Little Bit or Jeremih's Birthday Sex or something from Maxwell or Genuine). Leaving class is a whole different genre. I prefer something from the rock persuasion. Chester French has been a relatively new favorite (Jacques Jams Mixtape, C'Mon, Bebe Buell, Time To Unwind), but I always like The Red Hot Chili Peppers (Under The Bridge or Strip My Mind) and Rage Against The Machine (anything from Utero)

Coming from work/class it varies tremendously on my mood. When I'm dead tired I need something soft on the ears with not much heavy bass (Q-Tip's The Renaisssance is a favorite along with softer jams by N.E.R.D.), but when I'm annoyed or in a pissed off mood ANYTHING by the Notorious B.I.G. is worth throwing on. From Ready To Die (Warning and Big Poppa) to the Biggie Duets (Spit Ya Game). Eminem is always great too because it always makes me feel better about my own life (Drug Ballad or Criminal). Pink Floyd and Big Pun is always good to hear when I'm trying to knock out some homework.

Getting ready to go out I love anything current. Something that's going to be played at the party/club. Something that I have to learn the new dance to. Shit that I downloaded this morning, that I didn't get a chance to listen to yet. Something that will make Bradley run upstairs and pop through my door and ask what the hell are you listening to??? As of lately thats the Kid Cudi's (Dat Kid From Cleveland Mixtape), the B.o.B's (Haterz Everywhere), Curren$y (This Aint A Mixtape), The Cool Kids (PLEASE DOWNLOAD 'Gone Fishing' here CANNONNNNN!),

Going to bed... again its always a toss up. All I do is flip to a full album, turn the TV off, turn the iPod to kinda low and just dream beautiful thoughts. 808's and Heartbreak by Kanye West has been a heavy favorite since November, because the music just takes you away to another planet. T.I.'s Paper Trail is a close second because I can listen to every song. Rhoads 17's Sex On Speakers (S.O.S.) is great to listen to when I'm going to bed angry lol. You gotta love your own masterpiece. Last thing I can think of falling to bed to is Drake's So Far Gone Mixtape (which is a heavy HEAVY candidate for mixtape of the year) DOWNLOAD HEREEEEE. Have a good oneeee


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Yay or Nay

Red High Top Nike Air Yeezys
Hemp sole Vans

Happy Memorial Day

First off... I want to thank all the veterans who fought and the soldiers now who are fighting for freedoms here in the United States. A lot of people take these freedoms for granted but I thank God everyday for waking up to see another day and that my family and friends are okay. I thoroughly enjoyed my Memorial Day sitting on the couch watching The Game and Lifetime movies with friends. YES. LIFETIME MOVIES. I'm not ashamed lol. Plus we did play a few games of water pong for sport. Also tonight is Nuggets/Lakers Game 4 and I really counldn't be more excited. And to top my night off LAUREN IS GOING TO ACTUALLY SPEAK TO SPENCER ON THE HILLS TONIGHT. Mannnn i know i sound like the biggest female right now but I'm trying to enjoy my 4 days off and its day 2 right now...

Other than Memorial Day, everything hss been on the up and up. I'm finally adjusting to people not being in my life anymore and I'm slowly but surely getting used to being by myself. It's not easy by any means, but if this is how its supposed to be then I have to adjust. It just so crazy because shes everything I've ever wanted but she's now she is a completely different person. I think of myself as making mistakes and I was able to snap back to reality, but she is transforming into this ugly and cold-hearted person that I'm not used to. People like that don't shouldnt have the right to breathe air, but it seems like she is doing just fine. She's going to realize that was the dumbest mistake she has ever made in her life just like I was right about everything else in her past before me. Whatever, I really don't know who you are anymore, but have fun with your tub of lard lol.

Next up Chenelle's birthday extravaganza was this past weekend and I wanted to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my baby sister. I can't believe you are 16 and I hope you have an amazing time at the Beyonce concert in DC. You deserve a good time after everything that has been going on with the family. Ryan loves you. Seriously lol.

The next few weeks over this epic summer is all about having a lust for life. I guess the benefits will come with the territory. Maybe we will start up the water pong again later tonight, there was word of people coming over tonight, but there is no definite yet. All i know is I probably wont be leaving this couch for another couple of hours. I'm having a good time with the company I have now, because they appreciate my company. If anyone has any plans around 10:30 let me and the roommates know...

Drink Responsibly
R+B+

iPod Updated

I'm so glad I came home for this very reason lol. But on the real, I'm so glad to see the family. I havent been home since spring break and nobody and nothing has really changed. The family got a new beagle puppy named Zera. At first meeting the new puppy she seems like the sweetest little thing in the world, but she has so much energy that it really just gets on everyone's nerves. Also she HAS to sleep in the bed with someone. She can't sleep on the floor or in the bed by herself. Mom had to learn to deal with that early. Also my brother is continuing to get even bigger. I think by the time he starts his senior year, the kid is going to be a solid rock. The kid is absolutely rediculous. He dared to call me anorexic and I'm a pretty big guy myself lol. It was awesome to surprise Mom coming through the door on Mother's Day. Kwame' and I worked the Mother's Day brunch at work that day and made the trip back to Lynchburg right after. Finally making it home around 8. I scared the shit out of her coming through the door. She said I was lucky she didn't shoot me and my reaction was "Ma... we don't live in southeast DC anymore... this is Lynchburg."
Anyways back to Richmond tomorrow and I'm returning with groceries (thank God). I'm finally getting back into the mode of working all the time with no school (even though I start summer school at the end of the month). I'm getting more recognition at the country club and I'm feeling more and more comfortable every shift. So I think it will be a good summer as far as making money. I just have to get the damnnnn radiator fixed so my car can be street legal...AGAIN. Dad mentioning coming into town to fix it, but with his work schedule and him moving into Nana's old house in Appomattox, I don't exactly when that will be. Hopefully really soon in the next week or so, so I'm trying to be optimistic. Anyways I need to enjoy the final few hours here in the 'Burg with the family. Stay Tuned.

R_B_

Bebe Buell

Wow I am officially on summer break. It's the most bittersweet feeling in the world because I'm still taking two summer classes and I'm backing to working full time hours at the club. It's going to be the first summer away from my family, but hopefully both Marc and Donovan will come down to stay some. It's going to be an interesting summer to say the least for a variety of reasons, but I think as long as I have my munchkin Rach and the homies it should be a good summer too.
I just realized that I wont have a meal plan over the summer so eating for the next three months without Mom and Dad's help is going to be kinda tough. I mean, I know they will send me food here and there, but I know I am going to be on my own for the most part. And summertime means that the gym isnt going to be crazy packed on the regular now that everyone is going home. I just want the benefit of using the bench without being discouraged by the fact that I have to wait 45 minutes. I want to get back into supreme football shape even though I wont be playing football of any kind. I just love being in top physical condition. It's a process that I will be starting Monday. My brother is the strongest high school football player in the state of Virginia and the kid is a superfreak in the weight room. And with my other little brother Donovan growing like half a foot since like January, I can see him being huge also. AND Mom's prized child/ baby of the family got suspeneded from school for 3 days for getting into a fight with a 5th grader... Nicholas is in the 3rd grade. LOL. From a developmental standpoint the 5th grader should have killed my brother, but from what Mom told me Nicholas came out with only a few scratches but the 5th grader had to go to the hospital and get stitches. My family can kick your family's ass. SEE US
I think this will either be a dream summer or the summer from hell, because no matter how bad I wanted to move out of my parent's house and just do for myself, its hard doing a lot of the stuff I do without them breathing down my neck. Even though they were always on my case, I always got everything done. And though they hate the idea of me living at the apartment they know it was the best thing (even though they will never admit it). But we will see how everything plays out the next few days. I thought tonight was going to be the first night I was going to sleep-in in like 2 weeks, but I have to get up early and go to Auto Zone so I can get a radiator seal for my damn Camry. Every couple of weeks there is something wrong with us and I'm fed up with it. We will see how many is in August and i'll see if I can put in a down payment on my own newish ride. Like a Nissan Maxima, newer Toyota Camry or a Honda Accord. But we will see. I'll keep you posted.

R)B)

Bad Day

So I'm in the airport getting ready to leave
Heading to a friends wedding in the NYC
But my head has been spinning I'm forgetting to eat
All this jet setting has really been getting to me.
It's already 11:20 and I'm ready to sleep
But instead I end up sitting in the 27-C
An aisle seat, fine by me
But the guy that's insides always trying to pee.
With a wild child behind that's crying keeps
Flipping out and kicking at me while it violently screams
So I silently plead "Oh God, please let there be a hunny sitting 27-B"
But of course a morbidly obese beast
is in the seat that wheezes when it breathes
is at least three deep and he keeps telling me what is wrong with his knees
I'm feeling slaughtered, Just need water
But for a bottle they charge two dollars...
When I thought that it couldn't be worse... I forgot my iPod.

Live Life Like

Young, attractive
Handsome bachelor, awesome rapper
got a knack for, vernacular
When I perform, spectacular
I'll have any girl that i want
I'ma take the girl in the front
Boobs bounce when I tell the crowd jump
Honey come backstage I just wanna have fun, but
I'm too young to be locked down, not now
Need a new car, drive around with the top down
New broad with a bra the top down
Chillin in the backseat screaming out loud...

The cycle is Shawn Michaels (heartbreak),
And yeah I like you but not enough to wife you
You say I'm nice, true, and you think I'm the right dude
But there's another girl just like you (like who?)
And on the road, another night , another show
New event in a new time zone
And the live show is so mind-blowin
And it's my show so you know I'm blown (you know)
No texts gonna give me head
Long distance just ain't my thing
Young single don't need no ring
I'm a free man now I don't need no strings

If you're cool with nights at the pool
Jacuzzis and groupies, boobies and booze
And no rules, I'm under 22
I need to watch football and hang with a crew
But if you don't get mad when I get fat
Cuz all I do is eat, drink, study books and rap
And play Madden, then dag
you're pretty rad and I take it all back

Its Finally...

...over.
Now I see where your loyalty lies.
Thanks a lot for everything.

To Do

List:

- Get Dad to print out and send the renew lease forms for the apartment
- Go to the country club and talk to Chris Moletto about working full time over the summer with Kwam (Thursday)
- Register for Marketing and Sociology at J. Sarge this summer (and find out my bill)
- Figure out why my scholarship information was taken off my VCU E-services account
- Make sure Mom sets my appointment to get my wisdom teeth removed
- Help Rachel study for her Driver's Knowledge Test (You really do got this...)
- Abnormal Psychology Final 4.30
Marriage Final 5.5
Political Science Final 5.5
Interpersonal Relations Final 5.5
Social Psychology Final 5.6
- Season's Pass to Kings Dominion
- Interview for the Psychology Field Study 5.1 at Noon (Location: TBA)
- Pay May rent by the 5th at Noon
- Chenelle's Birthday Trip Memorial Day Weekend (Probably be working)
- Figure out what week the family is going to Las Vegas so I CAN take off for work
- VCU Health Services Appointment 5.17 (hopefully get it pumped to the 10th)
- Figure out what week in June Marc and Donovan will come down (possibly go to VA Beach)
Damnnnn long list with very little time
R%B%

Rather Sooner Than Later

The girl or the world
You see someone gotta lose
I thought I could have it all
Do I really gotta choose?
What good is all the cash
If it doesn’t buy time
And what good is being famous
If im never on your mind
Nights falling...
Lights glowin ...
And im just tryin ta pay the price owing
And I don’t wanna feel the comfort from my ice showin
And I aint tryin ta be with out you at the right moments
Nigga nights gone is it worth it?
That decision cuz hearts break in
I aint tryin ta be in that collision
So im dust my shirt
And fix my pants cuz I better look good girl if this my chance
I swear

I swear if summer doesn't hurry up and get here I swear I'm going to flip. I just refuse to believe I have three cumulative finals on the same day. It's whatever, its college and once that's over, I can officially start my summer. But for right this moment I'm chillin on my porch enjoy this 93 degree day. I've never seen Richmond shine so brightly. I thought about going to Belle Isle, but I think half of VCU's campus is there right now (if they are smart). And the fact I have to be at work at six, so this is allowing me to be more productive around the house. Cruz broke his cell phone AGAIN. I think it's his 5th cell phone since the beginning of freshman year and he is currently still asleep on the couch and it is currently 3:30 in the afternoon. JEEZ these VCU clowns kill me everytime.
I was flying and now I'm crashing. How do you stop yourself from losing control to everything you've ever known? I guess I'm learning that the hard way because its been hard to fathom my life the past couple of weeks (no details). As bad as I want my life to be back to normal, it doesn't really matter to the people that means the most to me. I really feel like giving up on people in general because they have given up on me and move forward with people who actually care about me. That sounds really good right. I'm less than two years away from college graduate and I'm not going to let anyone bring me down because I'm about to be 20 years old and I have my whole life ahead of me. It's like my last train of forgiveness you either get on or you get off and I'm not having anymore stops.

And I cant wait to see this movie



And I NEED of pair of Air Yeezys (The Kanye West Nike shoe)

The World Today (for me)

92 Degrees in Richmond, VA tomorrow (working from 6pm til close)
65% of Americans think Barack Obama is doing a great job
I prefer Chester French's "Love The Future" over Asher Roth's "Asleep In The Bread Aisle"
Next week's episode of Taking The Stage is going to be INTENSE
I don't think Eminem's "Relapse" CD is going to be that great
I'm deleting my myspace
I got a twitter... follow me
But facebook is the focal point of my internet usage
Nervous about what my final grade is going to be in my marriage class
I can't find my Florida Marlins baseball cap
Vive Mexico saved my life again
Love sucks terribly
I want everything to be the way they used to be
I'm craving some Apple Jacks
LeBron James is getting on my fucking nerves
The Redskins better draft somebody nice tomorrow (preferably not Mark Sanchez)
Rent is almost due...AGAIN
I need to update my blog more often because interesting stuff happens in my life
Will always be a loyal customer of Skull Candy Headphones
To Be Continued
R?B?

Like A Star

I really can't believe what kind of person you turned into. You are not the same sweet and kind-hearted person that I met before. I just feel we both have so much on our plates and we've been through so much that you just threw it away. Sometimes I can't even look at you knowing how much you hurt me. I've done some bad things to, but nothing in the caliber of what you have done. Anybody who things you are an amazing person does not even know the half of you. You thrive off of attention and being liked so much that you really don't give a fuck about anyone's feelings at all. It sucks because I thought you would be someone that I would cherish forever, but now all I see is how much you tarnished the situation. Moving forward will be extremely difficult. HELL, looking at your face will be extremely difficult, but I think I can do it. You always worried about me and what I am doing with my life and I think the same about you. Once people start to discover the type of person you are now, no one will like you for who you really are. And that really sucks for you because you had the potential to be an amazing human being. Well. We will see what the future holds for you, because I really can't put into words how much you hurt and embarassed me. I think they only way that can happen is if I hurt and embarass you as much as you did to me. But, I dont have the courage or the audacity to do that. So what do I do?

My Classes: Fall 2009

Wow junior year is almost upon us. This is ABSOLUTELY ridiculous. I just has not hit me yet that half of my college career is already over. It felt like in high school each year felt like two years and each college year feels like a semester. It's so crazy because that means that I'm that much closer to taking another giant step into the real world. I need my life to slow down for three seconds and actually let me breathe. I registered for two summer classes at J Sarge (the Richmond community college)

- Principles of Marketing
-Principles of Sociology: Family Studies

I'm doing an internship at a church here in the Richmond for another grand 3 credits.
Plus, I do have my job here at the country club (where I plan on working full time over the summer months). DAMMMNNN it, I remember I still have to renew my lease here at Carriage House, but my mom isn't going to go for it. She feels I can find another, CHEAPER place to live, but there are a few problems with Mom's plan...

1. I WANT to stay here. Everything is close to her and I can walk to class (finding a place where I can still walk to school that is affordable will not happen)
2. My roommates are staying here, so that means I would have to FIND people who are willing to live with me and that is more than a chore than anything else
3. That means I would have to move from Carriage House, find a bed, a desk, drawers and other furniture (which is all here at Carriage House) which will all cost money. Therefore I think staying here at Carriage House is the most fiscally responsible thing to do next year.

I just want to enjoy my summer here in Richmond and not have to worry about moving somewhere new halfway through my summer. I think my mom will live, it's not like she is paying my rent anyways. I just can't wait to get my season pass to Kings Dominion, hit up VA Beach on days trips and just kick with my boys with no serious school drama. Damn that sounds amazing right now...ONLY THREE MORE WEEKS AND WE ARE JUNIORSSSS (WOW!)

Junior Schedule:

AFAM 393:Geography Of Africa (African American Studies Minor Requirement)
ENGL 215: Readings In Literature (Literature Requirement)
ARTH 271: History of the Motion Picture (Visual/Performance Arts Requirement)
PHYS 103: Astronomy (Physical Science Requirement)
PSYC 410: Principles of Learning Cognition (Psychology Major Requirement)
URSP 116: Intro to the City (Urban Studies Requirement)

Craziest Mixtape Out Right Now

Chester French- Jacques Jams Volume 1: Endurance
The audio book is pretty much amazing and the music by Chester French is always incredible

Asher Roth- Asleep In The Bread Aisle (April 20th)
Chester French- Love The Future (April 21st)

Two albums I will definitely buy instead of downloading

Social Conduct

Certain people annoy me. Extremely. I don't really want to get into that but it seems like every time I turn around there is someone always complaining about how fucked up our society is. Society is only what you make it out to be, but at the same time you can't change people, so you have to deal with it. You can change government and how we run our society, but you can't change society as a whole because you find things to be imbalanced. So why complain about it? Probably because people look for something to complain about because things can't go their way. There is no such thing as a perfect world (or a perfect person at that matter), but so much judgment is passed and so much energy is wasted on a society that will never be perfect. I'm the type of guy who just sits back and kind of watch things happen in develop, but never pass judgment. People are always going to grind (in their own way), but why pass judgment? Why question society and actually think you are going to get results? Everyone's opinion has self worth, but no actual worth on getting society to change. Please get over it.

Stressin

You will just never understand and honestly...I don't expect you to. It's really hard being your best friend the last couple of months. You tried to say that this is what it was last year just reversed and I absolutely don't agree. You think its ok to do what you do, say what you say and then question every step I make. It doesn't work like that. You are NOT ALLOWED to do what you do on a regular basis and then text me, call me and question how I'm living my life. It seems like you just get off work and think and plot reasons to be upset. Then you go on and do whatever you want. I don't do whatever I want. I go to school, I go to work, I handle the issues with my family and I go to bed thanking God that I have another day. I don't know if you are slowly losing your mind or if you feel that guilty and paranoid about the own stuff that you have done or if you are really and truly that concerned about me, but I'm fine. If you were this same type of person in high school as you are now, I never would have talked to you. You can't live your life for what it's worth and expect me to live and your shadows and always be there for you. You have been manipulative and a liar and I've been trying to better myself and you are getting worse. I told you I'm not dealing with it anymore. Seriously. There is something sneaky and maniacal going on with you lately and I'm going to find out what it is. But for right now I don't believe a word you have to say anymore.

Five Facts About Female Orgasms

Most women need about 20 minutes of clitoral or G-spot stimulation to hit the jackpot. But an estimated 24 to 37 percent of women can't climax (and smoking, drinking, emotional disorders, medications, and menopause can make things worse).



There's hope for the orgasmically challenged. Cognitive behavioral therapy, testosterone treatments, the herb ginkgo biloba, and the nutritional supplement ArginMax (which includes Korean ginseng, ginkgo biloba, vitamins, minerals, and an amino acid) have been shown to improve sexual satisfaction.


Some researchers believe that having an orgasm during sex increases the chance of conception.


Besides its obvious perks, masturbating is good for your health. Studies show that orgasm can reduce sensitivity to pain, relieve menstrual cramps, and alleviate stress—possibly due to a surge in oxytocin and dopamine.

From ancient Greece to Freud's time, doctors stimulated orgasms in women via "medical massage" to treat the catchall female ailment known as hysteria. In the late 1800s, the vibrator was designed for the same purpose.

For The Love Of You

It's crazy where our lives has taken us lately. Honestly I still can't believe that you would even fall for a guy like me. We come from almost two completely walks of life, but I guess that's what keeps our relationship so interesting for such a long time. We agree, we disagree, we fight, we laugh, we get annoyed with each other, but we never gave up on each other. It's funny because I know a lot more about you than most people and even when it seemed like it was all over, I could never let it go. For all the wrong things I have ever said or done I truly apologize. Picturing my life without you is pointless because you are the one true person that makes me happy and I would do absolutely anything for. Because I'll pull down a cloud for you, I'll circle the stars and bring you one back, I'll walk through the sun for you because there's somethin you do... I'm not exactly sure what it is, but it makes me feel special and want to better my life everyday. You understand me. Even though we can both have our extreme views and opinions, you never judged me and you always listened to what I have to say. So let's watch our relationship grow into something prosperous and incredible. Because honestly, I couldn't live my life without you.
I love you.
R-B-

I Haven't Actually Done This Yet...

...And it should be interesting since I have about seven thousand songs lol.

1. Open your music library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For the first question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button TWICE
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool...just type it in

If your life was a soundtrack, what would it be?

Opening Credits:
Day26- So Good

Waking Up:
Drake- Lust For Life (Pretty scary accurate)

First Day at School:
Jay-Z- 30 Something

Falling in Love:
THE LONELY ISLAND- I'M ON A BOAT (HELLLL YESSSS)

Losing Virginity:
Day26- Got Me Going (Niiiice)

Fight Song:
Eminem- 8 Mile Road

Breaking Up:
Yung Joc- A Couple Grand (It would be cool if I hated the girl)

Prom:
Asher Roth- Gimme Your Box (Britney Spears "Gimme More" Remix)

Life:
Jay-Z feat. Ne-Yo- Minority Report

Mental Breakdown:
Q-Tip- Shaka

Driving:
Red Hot Chili Peppers- Scar Tissue

Flashback:
Tony Yayo feat. 50 Cent- So Seductive

Getting Back Together:
Yung Joc- It's Goin Down (Appropriate lol)

Wedding:
Rick Ross feat. Jay-Z- Maybach Music

Birth of Child:
Day26- Co-Star (DAMN a lot of Day26)

Final Battle:
Brandy feat. Kanye West- Talk About Our Love

Death Scene:
Justin Timberlake- Until The End Of Time

Pretty Gooddddddd lol
R"B"

Spoken

Its usually the beauty that attracts me,
But perhaps she was the right person,
Her personality made me happy,
And thats why I pursued her,
I'm a dude that makes maneuvers,
If I chose her than shes whipped, Cuz my dick as long as a ruler,
She may be kind of crazy,
Its cool as long as I school her,
I'm smooth as grand puba and I can charm a computer,
For us to conversate all it takes to make an impression,
Like a teacher lecturing,
When I speak, she taking lessons,
Without us being close its depressing,
They say nobody perfect,
But her honey-roasted complexion is close to perfection,
Plus she gotta body that could probably turn a gay man straight,
To stay in shape baby started taking karate,
So while she get it in the gym running the treadmill,
Im running from feds still,
Keep one in the head still,
I be reminiscing boo,
Missing you, thats being real
Cuz you nice in the bed and you nice with the head skills
Intellect to impress my baby, my baby better than the rest
You had me crying inside the moment you up and left

Jesussssss

This is Tammy Torres. The pictures speak for themselves.

Walkin On The Moon

As continued from my last post...

- It's very easy to see if a girl is commitment worthy, in the very early stages of meeting them. Girls you have sex with the first night you meet them are def not commitment worthy no matter how much you like them. How do you know if the girl isn't fight night fucking with nine or ten guys on campus? It's just a feeling you have to detect, because finding girls with superior morals isn't easy to find. Since there are way more females than males in the world, men should explore the wide ranges of women this world has to offer.

- I've always caught slack growing up for not sticking to black girls (especially from my own family) and I have one thing to say about that. I went to a basically all-white high school in Lynchburg and I was playing with what I was dealt. I don't discriminate against any race and I love all types of people, because they all bring something different to the table. Black women are usually the physically more attractive. They are just built with extreme superiority. White women are sweet and are extremely affectionate. Spanish/Latin girls are fiery, very open and speak Spanish is very sexy. Asians are smart and can adapt to any culture very well, which is mentally attractive. I just love people and I don't see why race is STILL a touchy subject, but people have to be open to everything before you can make judgment against people.

- I love a girl, who appreciates food like I appreciate food. It's always good to see girls put in work in the gym, but it is amazing at the same time if they can appreciate a good meal. I like to cook occasionally and I love the idea for girls to not be mind-blowing self conscious about their bodies, but at the same time don't let yourself go.

- You gotta have swag. A little self-consciousness is very cute. But I need a girl who knows shes the shit every time she walks in the shit and makes me think I'M the lucky one to have her. Confidence is sexy and it will keep me on my toes. If the girl has that social swag, that sexy swag, that school swag, then she can absolutely rock with me.

- You have to be tight with your family. People that don't have tight-knit family usually have some type of commitment issue and thats not particularly healthy. Being close to your family is pretty crucial because it shows your compassion for other people other than yourself. I don't know what I would do without my crazy ass family. Every girl that I dated or ever really liked, was very close with her family.

- I really love dancers. For real. They are hot. They have great movement, motivation and skill. They are quick on their feet and they can throw their powerful legs up in any position. It goes way beyond a physical aspect. It's also an artistic and mental aspect. A passion for art is more of a forgotten passion because a lot of people can't make money doing something they really love (especially dance). But I feel it is something anyone can pick up but few people who can simply make it attractive.

- Sweatpants, hair-tied, chillin with no make-up on and thats when you are the prettiest. Everyone knows you look fly with an incredible dress and all dolled up, but when you are still the sexiest girl around when you are on your down time, then that makes you simply incredible.

-A grown ass woman that's up for a good cartoon or two is an automatic winner. FA REAL. I have a ton of brothers and sisters so usually cartoons are on every television. You either complain about it or you just sit down and watch the hilarity. It sucks that I dont have cartoon network on my cable network in my apartment, but I catch Spongebob Squarepants almost every morning.

- A girl who is comfortable around my boys, but knows her place when it comes to when I want to hang with my friends rather than kicking it tonight with you. If you get along with my friends that means we will probably go out a lot together as a group. Just like its crucial to have a solid relationship with your family, it is also essential to get along with the boys.

R^B^

Mr. Yeah

Okay every girl wants to know what do guys want and what do guys look for a potential girlfriend and not some random scrape you meet at a party. So i decided to post some things that I really appreciate about the opposite sex. It can be a little superficial, but everyone is a bit a superficial in his or her way.

-Okay first off, honestly she has to be hot. You can't have anything with anyone if you aren't physically attracted to them. As harsh as it sounds, you basically know it is the truth. I don't see how people get together (let alone get married) when there is absolutely not attraction there.

- Second off for me, the girl has to love music. Music has been in my life forever and it will always be in my present future. I on average listen to about 5 or 6 hours of music a day. We really have to click on a music level, even if you don't like hip-hop. I like a bunch of Indie bands and I'm open to pretty much anything (but ABSOLUTELY NO COUNTRY, THAT IS NOT MUSIC). I've had amazing times where I sat in a car and vibed to CDs and I love it because it's emotionally connecting.

- Next, we have to connect intimately (and no not sex). There are other ways of getting intimate besides having sex. It is the fact that I'm perfectly comfortable telling you absolutely anything about myself and vice versa. I have some secrets to share if you actually want to sit down and take the time to get to know me. It has to feel right holding your hand, there has to be amazing conversations at all hours of the night, I can always depend on you (even for the smallest things) and the cuddling and the sleeping has to be amazing. SERIOUSLY. It has to be. If you don't cuddle, thats pretty much the end of it.

- Here's one that most people definitely take advantage of, there has to be complete honesty from the start. Lying and jealousy from the start will only kill the relationship down the road. Trust me, I know. Once the trust is gone, its nearly impossible to get back and if you do get it back, it's never going to be the same. It sucks to think of it like that, but once you lose that person, you are better moving on rather than dwelling in the past.

- You have to have goals/dreams. I have absolutely no problem providing for my family and being that dude that spoils you rotten, but if you don't want anything better for yourself, you are basically a gold digger. I like women who have that distinguishable desire to make their lives better and has a plan to get there. That's why college girls are so refreshing, because they are there to better themselves and I appreciate them for it. They have to have that intellect that most guys take for granted, because most of them get caught up in physical desires and self-wants. And you can really tell if girls have that desire if you sit down and talk to them for more than 10 minutes

- You have to be that girl that takes chances and have fun. From parties to living in the dorms, everyone wants to be around that person that is having a good time. They don't want to hang around the slut, but the girl who is there having a good time and has that presence that makes me want to come and talk to you and get to know you. But it is really tricky for girls because 90% of guys at parties are not genuine people. Talking to people at parties are awesome, because they are more open to talk then they are anywhere else and you can signal out there true colors. Those girls who make connections and love to have a good time, without throwing there body out there will get any guy they want. Guaranteed.

Thats just the tip of the iceberg basically. I will be sure to update this post randomly as time goes by.

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VCUUUUU

Won the CAA Championship which means they are going to the NCAA Tournament!!!

Hopefully Mama Dearest can hook up some funds so I can go see them play wherever they are at, but regardless I'm soooo fucking excited for my Rams. AND thank God Eric Maynor wasn't player of the game for once. I'm glad Larry Sanders got credit when credit was due. He did put 18 points, 20 rebounds and 7 blocks. He's going to be the focal point of our team next year. Anyways, I can't stop watching the ESPN highlight of the game because, every time they show the students rush the court, I see the corner of Colin Morecock's head.

CONGRATS RAMS NATION! I can't wait to see who we are playing and where we are seeded on Sunday.

That Maui Wowie

After much delay and multiple schedule changes, I am finally back in Lynchburg as of Sunday night. I am completely worn after working a full shift then driving to Williamsburg, then driving back to the Lynchburg all in one day. But all I had to do was sit down with my brothers for a few minutes and I realized I love being home, the rare times I'm here. My brothers are just the craziest kids to be around because they dont care who is around. They are going to say whatever is on their mind. Hopefully this week I will meet my brother's new girlfriend Emily (he finally gave in to the temptation of white girls).

This morning I woke up 6.50 to the sound of Marc playing "Maui Wowie" by Kid Cudi and that song has been in my head all day. I had to young Nicholas on the bus in the morning and made sure he got home safely as well. After he got on the bus, I laid around until noon playing video games and tried to visit my brothers at school. I was really interested in seeing the school since the renovations were completely done. But NOW since the school is finished, no one but parents are allowed to visit the new building. SO pissed about that shit.

Anywayssss when I got home from from the school, lunch and running errands for my mom. I took Nick to the mall to buy any video game he wanted for his Nintendo Wii and took him for some ice cream because I wasn't here for his birthday last week. He really deserved it and I love my little brother. He is amazing kid and really strong about everything that has been going on lately. After the older-little siblings got home and I realized Mom was working late, I took the whole family out for pizza. You do what you gotta do for the fam.

For the rest of the week I'm going to try to convince my mothers to let the kids stay home ONE day, so I'm not here by myself all day everyday all week. I'm going to go support the Dream and go buy his 2nd CD tomorrow and hopefully go catch up with some of these Lynchburg bumpkins. Besides visiting the family, I haven't really missed this place (except the Degrassi marathon on the N....don't hate). Update tomorrow...I promise

R*B*

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